Brunei Diaries

                

   I know this is crazy but I want to start all over again. 

                   I don't want to fall too much for a guy especially to someone who doesn't see me as a priority. I want to enjoy meeting new people without getting hurt. I've had a lot. I want 2012 to be a year full of contentment. I want to be contented with meeting new people, get inspired from them and treasure them as it is, nothing more, nothing less. I want to feel so complete without falling for someone who will just call me when he needs me. I want to smile even without nothing. I want to fall for movies, stories, and be contented with that. I may date guys but that's all. I don't want to feel anything special for a certain guy again. It's just a cycle. I want an overflowing happiness because I have no special someone. I want to appreciate my family and my friends. I just want platonic love that will never hurt my heart. I want to walk on the streets smiling because I am single and my heart's not taken emotionally. I want to look at guys equally. I don't want to spend too much time thinking about a specific  guy, a specific date, a specific conversation or whatsoever. I want happiness without getting to  the point that I'll fall in love. I just want to be simple---going out with friends. 

And if ever this will be hard for me, I will keep on reading this to remind my self that there's more to life than an unworthy guy. There is more. There is happiness. There is contentment.  Single blessedness is indeed a blessing and I must treasure that. I don't want to act foolishly again because I fall for love. I want to  be happy and I choose to change this year. No more I-like-him-a-lot drama. No more efforts-for-a-special-guy drama. No more cry-for-a-guy drama.