Encounter God Retreat

Arrived at the venue (QC) at 8.32am. Oha. I ain't late. We started at 9.10 and as usual, I am so drowsy. Hoping to wake my body so I can absorb everything. I want to be moved!

Coffe break for us. I need to eat coffee. Eat coffee, not drink.I met a new friend at EGR. She is Ruby. And Lord's will is for Ruby to be my prayer partner. We opened our hearts for each other.---and yes, she will be my prayer partner forever.

my roommates, Ruby beside me

As we headed our day of knowing and getting closer to the Lord,  each of us recalled our sins. Little or big, still I sinned. And every session was equivalent to specific sins in life that we scrutinized one by one. I realized, "Wow, sobrang dami!" We had a part of the session where we must forgive those who sinned  against us. As I wrote on a paper, what I recalled was that on school. And then, I thought of my past...and there came 4 more! Those unforgiven people in my life were the ones I forgot/hated for so  many years. 3 out of the 4 were related to  my family. They were the people directly connected to my family whom I didn't forgive. Me and my prayer partner opened a lot about our burdens with others  and we were refreshed by that.

The most exciting and heartwarming part of the day was the last session we had on the first day. We watched how the Lord was crucified  and then suddenly, all of us cried. In me, I felt the guilt  that haunted me for so many years. I FELT SO ASHAMED. I asked Jesus, "Why you?  Why not me who sinned a lot?" I was so shaken  by the video  as I looked into my past. How awful I am. Nanliit ako sobra. And the tears in my eyes  were then accompanied by mournings, moaning...because I am not justifiable of the Lord's love. I asked Him to please hug me, cleanse me. I IMAGINED MY SELF ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS. I felt the love of a FATHER.

He is so...hay I just cannot  even explain how great He is. This experience of mine moved me...so much.

Going home from EGR. Feeling ko ayoko nang umalis don because  ang gaan-gaan sa pakiramdam.  But I have to face the fact  that I will battle against this world. Praying that God will clothe me for me to be equipped outside, that He will give fire in my heart for me to be used for His glory and to  give my veins the water I need, the water that will overflow  and will bless others.

I must live a victorious life beside the Father. And at the end,  I envisioned my self preeaching on VCA...sharing the gospel to so many people...that I may be used to praise Him and to influence people  of how good is the Lord.

In the end, I am moved. I GOT MY FEET CLOSER TO HIM  again.

Encounter God Retreat held last Apr21 to 22, 2011 at QC.